November 20, 2013: The Worst Day Of My Life On Earth

 

 

 

 

 

My name is Richin John Koshy. I am from Mumbai India. I am a medical doctor and i have completed my studies from Chennai, India. I also have a Masters in Medical Sciences from Linkoping University, Linkoping Sweden.

 

Following my studies i attempted an exam named USMLE  to pursue higher studies in USA. I completed part 1 of the exam 

 

 

 

I passed Part 1 of the exam which enabled me to write the Part 2 of the exam. I was scheduled to write my exam on November 20, 2013, Banjara Hills, Hyderabad. 

 

I reach the Prometric Center in Banjara Hills, Hyderabad. I get into the examination hall after all the verification of documents. I start writing the 9 hour Licensing Exam. 

 

I complete 5 hours of the exam without much difficulty. 

 

On the 6 th block which is the 6 th hour of the exam i experienced something which i have never experienced in my entire life time 

 

 My Hellish Experience

 

MY EYES ON ITS OWN MOVES AWAY FROM THE SCREEN. MY HANDS AND EYES START TO MOVE ON ITS OWN. FOLLOWED BY THAT BY MOUTH STARTS TO OPEN. I START OPENING MY MOUTH IN THE EXAMINATION. ALL WHAT I AM EXPERIENCING IS HAPPENING INVOLUNTARILY. I HAVE LOST GRIP OVER MY LIFE. MY WORLD AND REALITY IS FALLING APART. ALL OF THIS HAPPENED WHILE WRITING A SCIENTIFIC MEDICAL LICENSING EXAMINATION OF USA CONDUCTED BY USA GOVERNMENT 

 

IF THIS CAN HAPPEN TO ME THIS CAN HAPPEN TO ANYBODY

 

IF I AM A VICTIM ANYBODY CAN BE A VICTIM 

 

IF SUCH THINGS ARE HUMANLY POSSIBLE ANY HUMAN BEING CAN BE NEXT ON THE LINE 

 

  I HAD TO SAY THIS BECAUSE I HAVE COMPLETED 10 YEARS SINCE THAT DAY 

I HAVE MANY A TIMES THOUGHT TO KILL MYSELF, HARM MYSELF SINCE THAT DAY OVER THE PAST 10 YEARS. THIS EXPERIENCE IN ITSELF CAN MAKE YOU SUICIDAL AS  YOU DONT KNOW WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON. 

          I SOMEHOW OVERCAME IT. I NEVER WENT FORWARD TO KILL MYSELF

 

I AM STILL ALIVE. ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS STAY ALIVE 

 

I HAVE DECIDED THAT WHATEVER FORCE THIS MAY BE LET IT BE MY DEATH THAN ME BLAMING MYSELF AND DOING THE UNWANTED

                     I HAVE COMPLETED 10 YEARS AND CHOSE TO STAY ALIVE 

                                      NOVEMBER 20, 2013 - NOVEMBER 20, 2023 

                                                       I HAVE LOST DANCING